Monday, May 12, 2008
Where did the years go?
I keep saying "I'll get to this or that once things calm down" but that never seems to happen. Sometimes it feels like life is just passing me by and I don't have time to enjoy it. My 20th High School reunion is next month and I am really asking myself "where did the years go?" I still feel like I am about 25 years old in someone else's body. I have wrinkles developing, bags under my eyes, I am putting on weight and for the first time in my life it is a struggle to keep my weight down even with exercise and I am starting to have aches and pains all over my body. I will also have my 38th birthday next month too. I dread my approaching birthday every year. I don't want to get older. I think it is because I spent so many years of my life in a miserable relationship that I feel like I lost out on some of the best years of my life. I wish I could have those years back and "live" them. I am not sure what the secret is to living and enjoying life but I wish I could figure that secret out.